You have OCD 7 years later it was wrong.

Pregnant with twins 7 1/2 years ago took a strain on my body, health and mental health. I realised I was constantly unable to stop touching my hair to the point I would feel a slight lump where the hair was broken and snap the broke piece off. Sounds crazy right?  I thought so as…

38 days gamble free date night and new hair cut 

So yesterday for the first time in ages me and my partner had a date night or rather date afternoon.  With 5 kids the only time we get together alone is when the kids are in bed.  Which normally means I’m out cold just as fast as they are. It was lovely we went into…

Good bye long locks 

Well I’m having to say goodbye to my hair!!   It has taken so long to grow back but because of how bad my anxiety and ocd have been my hair is totally destroyed. This is it now it looks prefect in this picture doesn’t it??  Amazing actually but guess what pictures are deceiving. So…

Falling apart 

I thought I was doing good that I had started to achieve something with my anxiety depression and ocd but I guess I was wrong. Today started great, called into the doctors to sort out my prescription and was told to go back at 10:30 for an appointment. So I spent the morning walking round…

Good bye control 

So today was going so so well I was feeling proud.  Achieving so much and really enjoying today.  Then around 4:45 a knock at the door I knew instantly who it was. Answering there stood the landlord and instantly my anxiety shot up.  I was doing so well I don’t understand why he can’t just…

How my ocd effects me 

A lot of people joke about wanting someone to have a obsessive compulsive disorder so they tidy the house better or remember to turn off switches at night but the truth is living with a obsessive compulsive disorder is far from easy or fun and I would not wish it on my worse enemy ever….

Gambling under control so what about my ocd and anxiety 

Firstly a apology for not posting on the last few days my last post was Thursday which was updating people on Edgar happened Wednesday.  So I guess this blog post is about Thursday to today which is Saturday. So Thursday was just like any other day waking up at 5am I got a cup of…

Mind games 

I’m sat on the bed it’s quiet everyone’s asleep for some reason I feel calm then I look down to my phone and see itOK in finger is tapping the spin button on one of the slots I used to play.  Confused and dazed I panic what have I done watching the reels spin I…

Speaking out for the first time 

Waking up I felt dazed confused and tired. I couldn’t sleep I kept waking up to check my phone just in case he called or text he didn’t. I honestly couldn’t blame him I mean £600 gone in just a few hours and now 2 months behind on the rent I wouldn’t have blamed him…