Recovery

Battle of strength against a toxic mind Thoughts tempting me to leave my recovery behind I don’t want to play this game anymore I don’t want to keep up the fight anymore I am a soldier in a war Within my own mind plaguing me In my recovery, I am not winning the war I…

Why Gambling?

I still get asked this now, why gambling? Why not drugs, or drink why did I gamble? I am sure, I have explained before but not 100% so I will go into it a little bit now and hopefully people will understand why. So, I don’t drink, I have maybe had 10 glasses since I…

The Need To Be Sedated

It all started with a small bet Then the time came I needed to be sedated My soul unable to control my mind Spiralling downwards to a bitter end Just one more bet is all I need That one more bet turned into thirty-three I know I will regret this when it’s over but each…

Burning Strength

I almost had it all, then I was fooled The happiness, the life, everything I ever wanted Then I was fooled I believed you was the only way to survive I depended on you when times got hard My mind begged daily for you as you was my escape I was fooled, you was a…

I hit 100 days!! 

I have been so busy but rather then going into it on here I will make a separate post regarding life. So Sunday was the 100th day I did not gamble!! Today is actually 102days I know I’m late updating!! In those 100 days I have saved myself £4,400 on average!!  Now that has gone!!…

Excited, Upset, Anxious Just A Few Thoughts Of Gambling

It is amazing, isn’t it!  Just how many people kept their secrets hidden when it comes to addictions.  Something that people often see as wrong and weak and that makes people hide what they are doing for so long.   I have had the same questions come up in many conversations from people who think…

60 Days Gamble Free Fighting Addiction

If you make it through this blog post read it all that would be amazing! If you shared it would be even more amazing just think you never know who might be on that social media platform who is in the same position I was 60 days ago!  You never know who you could help…

Women more likely to become addicted to gambling then 5 years ago 

So I’m going to be honest,  when people hear of gambling addictions they think of men and bookies.  People automatically put gambling addiction in that setting because let’s be honest it used to be men who would become addicted not women. Women didn’t gamble often yet men did.  You see it in films and on…

Falling apart 

I thought I was doing good that I had started to achieve something with my anxiety depression and ocd but I guess I was wrong. Today started great, called into the doctors to sort out my prescription and was told to go back at 10:30 for an appointment. So I spent the morning walking round…

Apologies to my followers 

I realised it’s been a while since my last blog post.  I was busy getting everything ready and sorted for the kids starting back at school by the time it but 7pm I was out cold!!   Gambling is getting no where I’m ignoring all the thoughts I have and keeping myself busy.  Now here’s…