Little By Little

A little at a time, no big difference, that single strand doesn’t stand a chance. Little by little, I pick and pull, I feel my anxiety giving a pull. With each pick and pull, my anxiety slips away, feeling free and relaxed for the day One little strand doesn’t make much difference, two little strands…

Bound to the bed

My body stuck, slumped on the bed, unable to move. I struggle to breathe, tears in my eyes, sore and red, screaming for a break. I try getting out, but I just get pulled back in again, there is no escape. Time passes, everyone living life, while I am here bed bound screaming to be…

Depression

Now I write a lot of poems, some not on here yet that are more performance poetry. This one, gets me every time it explains it so perfectly!

Your words change

You say you care. I hear I don’t care stop moaning You say I love you. I hear sorry I don’t love you I just feel I have to say I do. You say I’m beautiful. I hear your ugly and repulsive You say I’m worthy of your time. I hear your wasting my time…

38 days gamble free date night and new hair cut 

So yesterday for the first time in ages me and my partner had a date night or rather date afternoon.  With 5 kids the only time we get together alone is when the kids are in bed.  Which normally means I’m out cold just as fast as they are. It was lovely we went into…

Good bye long locks 

Well I’m having to say goodbye to my hair!!   It has taken so long to grow back but because of how bad my anxiety and ocd have been my hair is totally destroyed. This is it now it looks prefect in this picture doesn’t it??  Amazing actually but guess what pictures are deceiving. So…

Falling apart 

I thought I was doing good that I had started to achieve something with my anxiety depression and ocd but I guess I was wrong. Today started great, called into the doctors to sort out my prescription and was told to go back at 10:30 for an appointment. So I spent the morning walking round…

Good bye control 

So today was going so so well I was feeling proud.  Achieving so much and really enjoying today.  Then around 4:45 a knock at the door I knew instantly who it was. Answering there stood the landlord and instantly my anxiety shot up.  I was doing so well I don’t understand why he can’t just…

Facts about gambling addictions.

Most people think the number one problem sometime with gambling Addiction has is financial.  This is wrong some people with gambling addictions do not have financial difficulty.  Gambling addiction is more then just money it effects people on all levels. It is a emotional Addiction that varies from person to person.  Some use gambling to…