A battle to get the doctor to listen 

So today is the day I see the doctor or should be a day where I end up feeling better like there is a light at the end of the tunnel but it certainly is not. I set off to go to the doctors at seven my appointment is at eight.  Getting there there is…

I need a doctor 

Today was hard I’m more struggling not so much the thoughts of gambling but unable to control my feelings I don’t know how to feel or what I should do. Once minute in smiling the next I’m on the verge of tears.  Left alone during the day is the worst thing possible I sit there…

No more interest

So it’s now Wednesday this week seems to be going so slow a mixture of emotions and hardly able to smile. Trying to keep myself busy just is not working, the interest for everything is gone, watching television I get bored, tidying just doesn’t help you can tidy without thinking about what you’re doing that…

I’m billiejo and I’m addicted to gambling 

The words I never thought I would hear myself say but I now am. So that is Friday 20th January 2017 and something big just happened. I had a breakdown I was sat there crying shaking uncontrollably hardly able to speak and broken. You see I had must have gambled away £600 in just a…