Recovery

Battle of strength against a toxic mind Thoughts tempting me to leave my recovery behind I don’t want to play this game anymore I don’t want to keep up the fight anymore I am a soldier in a war Within my own mind plaguing me In my recovery, I am not winning the war I…

60 Days Gamble Free Fighting Addiction

If you make it through this blog post read it all that would be amazing! If you shared it would be even more amazing just think you never know who might be on that social media platform who is in the same position I was 60 days ago!  You never know who you could help…

Facts about gambling addictions.

Most people think the number one problem sometime with gambling Addiction has is financial.  This is wrong some people with gambling addictions do not have financial difficulty.  Gambling addiction is more then just money it effects people on all levels. It is a emotional Addiction that varies from person to person.  Some use gambling to…

Gambling under control so what about my ocd and anxiety 

Firstly a apology for not posting on the last few days my last post was Thursday which was updating people on Edgar happened Wednesday.  So I guess this blog post is about Thursday to today which is Saturday. So Thursday was just like any other day waking up at 5am I got a cup of…

I shocked myself 

So yesterday was amazing I can’t believe what I actually accomplished.  Getting up at 6 me and kids ready to go to school I asked my partner for my bank card.  Today we be the first day I will have it since I admitted to having a gambling problem.  I needed to get the twins…

A trip to the hospital 

Yesterday was a good day.  Waking up again feeling starving and like all week ate a lot.  Up at six to get ready and get my daughter ready for her hospital visit. It feels so weird leaving the house on a morning with only one kid.  Im so used to leaving on a morning with…

Food?  yes please oh wait no thanks 

Today was a better day I didn’t have as much thoughts about gambling and feeling a little happier.  Amazingly I woke up feeling the same as yesterday though.  The feeling of been starving and that feeling you have after you have just got over a sickness bug.  The first morning waking up and thinking I…

Mind games 

I’m sat on the bed it’s quiet everyone’s asleep for some reason I feel calm then I look down to my phone and see itOK in finger is tapping the spin button on one of the slots I used to play.  Confused and dazed I panic what have I done watching the reels spin I…

Withdrawal symptoms seriously? 

Wow this was not something in expected. All I have done today is shake uncontrollably sweating then been cold then to hot bad headaches and so confused. I didn’t think you get withdrawal symptoms from gambling addictions I thought that was just from drugs alcohol you know the things that go into your body so…