No two victims are the same

What is the year? 1845? You would think it the way some people seem to not realize that no victims are the same and are effected differently from their abusers. People assume that because they were fine or someone they know was ok that well everyone else who suffers should as well. Fact is no…

Its been a while

Some of you follow my other blog and will understand this blog post more then others.  Take a look at my account and click crying with mental pain I love writing blogs recently I have struggled I just don’t feel confident in what I write or that people will find it interesting.  Although to be…

Stress control course and huge changes 

So today was day one of this 6 week course.  Every Monday I go to the course and get new information to help control stress. But before that I started implementing a morning wake up routine and schedule!  5am my Alarm rang I could easily have switched it off for another hour and half but…

That mummy you judge!  Is already broken 

I am far from perfect just so you know. I gave my child a chocolate early this morning to praise her for been so brave. While you walk past me tutting calling me names. The supermarket is their favorite place that’s right to scream and roll around on the floor. While you watch me like…

38 days gamble free date night and new hair cut 

So yesterday for the first time in ages me and my partner had a date night or rather date afternoon.  With 5 kids the only time we get together alone is when the kids are in bed.  Which normally means I’m out cold just as fast as they are. It was lovely we went into…

Depression, Anxiety, ocd, Addiction and adult coloring review 

I so needed a hobbie like badly since stopping gambling I realised that was in a weird twisted way my hobbie.  I guess though it’s just the same for a alcoholic or drug user it becomes their expensive hobbie just like mine. And expensive it certainly was.  With the money I had deposited I could…

Good bye long locks 

Well I’m having to say goodbye to my hair!!   It has taken so long to grow back but because of how bad my anxiety and ocd have been my hair is totally destroyed. This is it now it looks prefect in this picture doesn’t it??  Amazing actually but guess what pictures are deceiving. So…

Falling apart 

I thought I was doing good that I had started to achieve something with my anxiety depression and ocd but I guess I was wrong. Today started great, called into the doctors to sort out my prescription and was told to go back at 10:30 for an appointment. So I spent the morning walking round…