Stupid girl your weak

Sitting and listening, the words spreading

You come at me from every angle

You are worthless, you are weak, you are not worth the air that you breath

You shouldn’t still be breathing.

Stupid girl just go and finish your life you are weak.

Sitting and crying I have to agree.

Those words hit me from every angle and made me see

I’m worthless, I’m weak, I’m not worth the air that I breath.

I shouldn’t still be breathing

I should just end this life and prove I’m not weak.

Stupid girl just give in.

Sitting crying, my parents laugh at me

Little girl you need to stand up

You are not weak, you are not worthless, you deserve the air that you breath

Get out there and show them you are not weak.

Walking the streets your words hit me from every single angle

Running away I feel weak, crying in the toilets I pull the blade free

The sting across my wrists as I begin to bleed

The bullies crying at me, their words hitting from every angle.

You are weak and you are worthless and waste the air that you breath

Your attention seeking doesn’t work with me

The blade digging deep the blood running free, my eyes feeling heavy you stand here watching me

The tears in you’re eyes as you see me, my life growing weak

The blood draining from me.

Don’t go stupid girl our words were just jokes.

You are not weak and your worthy please don’t stop breathing you are beautiful can’t you see

Waking up in the hospital bed, my parents stare at me.

Their words hitting every angle

You are weak, do you not care what we think, there is more in the world then just you.

You need to get a grip and stop attention seeking because I don’t want see it.

Explaining they hold their hands up, they area not interested they think I am weak.

Slowly dying now they see, my last words to them making them see.

Crying I shake my head, this isn’t for attention this was me trying to be free and show I am not weak

I thought you would be better without me, I thought your life would finally be free from me.

I thought I was saving everyone including me. I never wanted everyone to hate me.

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5 Comments Add yours

  1. Eric says:

    As someone who struggles with anxiety, depression and an unhealthy personal disdain I resonate with so much of this. I can only imagine how painful and hard it is when these words are coming from external sources. Some days I barely survive the onslaught from within.

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    1. I totally understand Eric, people don’t realise just how much some people are bullied by their own thoughts before they attack.

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      1. Eric says:

        It’s good to know you’re not alone. Thanks for the post. Despite being dark, it’s strangely uplifting to me today

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      2. Eric says:

        You’re so welcome

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