Forget the past forget the future this is right.
Drink in hand I cry my mind wondering why.
The only way out now is suicide.
I don’t want to live this life, thinking of the reasons why.
I used to be do or die but right now it is just die.
My mind used to control these thoughts
Then one day I lost control and I can’t control it.
The day came when I felt there was only one escape.
I remember the day you passed and pain and misery.
I don’t remember a time in my life when it was nothing but perfect.
I am at crossroads and looking both ways.
I don’t know which path is easier to take.
I question my life every night, looking through for someone who can help.
There is no one here, there is no help for me here.
Alone and crying the world is trying to destroy me.
I don’t feel there is a place in this life I don’t feel I can live it right.
This life is wasted on me, I can’t even escape it.
The darkness is consuming, trapped in this broken body
The broken mind digging in deep trying to break me.
The memory of you leaving always there hurting.
I don’t feel I can live this life without you here
You was my escape from the world and now I don’t even have that.
Lying on the bed, I look up at the celling.
I feel like I deserve this karma taking back what I gave and getting revenge.
No one ever takes it serious they assume I am the strength
There is weakness I just show them the strength
Broken and crumbling my mind is giving up the only way out is suicide.
My heart going crazy as I look at the pills.
People walk by and say i am great, I get on with it and I am strong
I wish I was strong like they see, right now I am weak and there is only one escape.
Looking at the pills I pick them up, the pain and misery of family in my mind.
Will they ever care, am I worth the hassle I am causing?
My world is useless my children crying yet I can’t find a way out the darkness
The world is smiling around me when I can dying.
The only escape I can see is one that will kill me.
Yet something inside helps me fight something inside pushes me breath.
When the only way out seems to be suicide I remember your face.
The pain and misery on everyone else’s
I can’t live and die knowing I caused misery like that.