I smile thinking this is it.
Surrounded by family at last
But I don’t fit in, I don’t feel it
A puzzle and I am the odd piece
Trying to slot in but unable to
Talking and laughing while I sit and watch
Wonder and amazement at how I can’t
The words you say are familiar
Yet I am stuck in a trance unable to respond
It is like I am a stranger from outside
Coming in years down the line
The words are there yet there is no connection
I stand awkwardly while you stare
I can’t do this I am not able to
I try and try and each time I die
I watch a part of me break apart
Falling to the floor shattering
The sun shining off, a thousand shards of glass
As I look down at the broke piece
This is not me, I do not fit in
Yet even when i am trying it is like I don’t exist
You all talk I sit and watch
Amazement and wonder at how free you are
A family laughing talking
Then there’s me who is just sat waiting
Wondering when will you ask me?
