Crushed pills and a knife
I consider my life
Is it really worth getting dragged down?
See, I have had my highs and my lows
I have had my downfalls
My broken bones
Shattered dreams and broken childhood
I have held on and had to let go
Memories that bleed red
Warzones replaying within my head
A misery you would never expect
I have fallen down
I get back up to fight again
Then there is you
My life’s only weakness
I run from you but I can’t outrun you
I fight every day
Turning black and blue
Pain and torture as I walk across glass
Just to try and escape you
Bags of sand falling onto me
More weight to carry every day
Showing my baggage building up with each day
I fight with each breath no matter what I still get up
Why don’t you just stay down?
I look at the crushed pills, a knife next to me
Which would make me stay down?
I get back up and brush myself off ready to fight again
I have been through worse
I see you there and I lick my wounds
I carry on fighting pushing through
Your there no matter what my only weakness
The only thing that can make me fall
Crushed pills, a knife next to me
My only weakness shining through
A red rose turned black as I look at the bottle
The crushed pills waiting to be taken
I fight back, your my only weakness
I push through and let go of the past
It holds me hostage in my own mind
When I try to forget it comes back with vengeance
You attack me and there I am with crushed pills and a knife
Holding the gun to my head I cry
Considering is this the only option to escape you?
Does this world really need me?
Another mentally unstable person making the world a bleak place
I fight back each time, your my weakness
Your my mind!