The Need To Be Sedated

It all started with a small bet

Then the time came I needed to be sedated

My soul unable to control my mind

Spiralling downwards to a bitter end

Just one more bet is all I need

That one more bet turned into thirty-three

I know I will regret this when it’s over

but each bet gets me closer and closer

each bet relaxes me I feel the adrenaline

I know I will regret this when it’s over

The bitter end comes, and the emotions coming back

I look at the paper declaring me penniless

Now is the time for me to be sedated

My mind only wants to fool me now

Telling me not to worry we will win next time

I push the feelings away, I hide the emotion from been penniless

I tell myself I won’t do it again then payday comes

I put on the bet just one bet

I know I will regret this later

It never ends with just one

I see the declaration that I am penniless

The time has come I need to be sedated

My mind tells me not to be so stupid

My heart breaking looking at my struggles

Soul crippling running away knowing right now I need to be sedated

Your the only one that want’s me around

My mind reminding me why I believe in you

I don’t believe in you my mind is crippled

The addiction taking hold

I just now after the first bet

I will regret it later.

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