I am afraid of closeness

I cry, my heart broken, I cry, for the closeness

I wipe my tears, ignoring the want, I wipe my tears, hoping it won’t come

I sit and wonder, when will the time come? I sit and wonder, do I want the time to come?

My mind wonders, can I ever have it? My mind wonders, why does everyone have it?

My heart longs, it longs for closeness, my heart longs, for the closeness you have

I can’t get close, not to my family, I can’t get close, not to my partner

My heart is shielded away, scared of closeness, my heart is shielded away, scared of being broken

I want that closeness, by my heart is afraid, I can’t get that closeness I am too afraid.

The closeness sounds so good, I cry for it, but then I remember the heart ache that comes and I don’t want it.

I am afraid of closeness, even to family, closeness causes heart breaks,

closeness causes, upset, closeness causes, death

I am afraid of never finding the closeness, but I am more afraid of finding the closeness and my heart being left in pieces.

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One Comment Add yours

  1. Stirred up the emotions.. well written.
    Regards
    Ami

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